"You must love all that God has created, both His entire world and each tiny little sand grain of it, then your mind will open itself to an all embracing love." Fyodor Dostoyevsky







Showing posts with label Dispair. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Dispair. Show all posts

Thursday, February 7, 2013

"The Invitation" by ~Oriah Mountain Dreamer

As the well spring flows out of me like a mountain stream that has no boundaries... I linger... here and there...
He never leaves nor forsakes me... I feel His presence... He speaks to my heart...

Today...   "Howbeit in the business of the ambassadors of the princes of Babylon, who sent unto him to enquire of the wonder that was done in the land, God left him, to try him, that he might know all that was in his heart." 2 Chronicles 32:31

"God, by the power of his almighty grace, could have prevented the sin; but he permitted it for wise and holy ends, that, by this trial and his weakness in it, he might know, that is, it might be known (a usual Hebraism), what was in his heart, that he was not so perfect in grace as he thought he was, but had his follies and infirmities as other men. God left him to himself to be proud of his wealth, to keep him from being proud of his holiness. It is good for us to know ourselves, and our own weakness and sinfulness, that we may not be conceited or self-confident, but may always think meanly of ourselves and live in a dependence upon divine grace. We know not the corruption of our own hearts, nor what we shall do if God leave us to ourselves. Lord, lead us not into temptation. " Charles Spurgeon
Tonight...
"Soul desire seeks to push the edge in the places where we have drawn a line in the sand saying, “This is where I will not go, this is what I will not risk.” And what is easy for one may be hard for another. Wherever we have draw the line, the risk of crossing it feels very real. We risk failing to fulfill our desires, of being exposed for our deepest yearnings. We risk mistaking one desire for another, only to arrive at fulfillment held in the arms of disappointment. Sure that we ache for time apart we may walk away from another only to find our yearning unmet in aloneness. Reaching for the other with whom we can share life we may plunge into a relationship that brings us face to face with a loneliness we have never known in solitude. To move we have to allow ourselves to be the fool, the one who does not know, who starts again and again at the beginning." ~Oriah Mountain Dreamer from "The Invitation"

This well spring is flooding... it is overflowing and has no where to roam...
The soul yearns and churns as the froth of the crashing waves...
The rocks are dangerous...
The edge... the line drawn is so near... so very near...
...yet so, so far...

The sun has slowed... in prayer... I've experienced it...
Prayer always answered... never left to wonder...
...when sought out...

Lead in the way everlasting I pray...
Lead me beside the still waters...
Lead me in thy truth...



 

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Out In The Sea

I'm floating along in a little boat in the middle of the great big sea...
I can't see land on any side... I don't have any oars to paddle... I'm drifting and being tossed about... and I don't know where I'll end up...
Out in the far off sky it is dark... I don't know which direction anything is going because I forget which way the sun sets and rises... just drifting
There is a mist in the air but I can't tell if it's coming from the water or if it is starting to rain... I have no shelter from the storm and the boat is becoming tumultuous...



Peter was out in the boat when the storm was raging... He saw something coming walking on the water... he realized it was the Lord...
Jesus called him out onto the water... he stepped out... in faith...
Do you believe this really happened? Have you ever been by the seashore and stepped out... did you walk on the water?
Peter stayed afloat while he kept his eyes on Jesus... then suddenly he turned away and looked at the storm... the raging sea... the impossibility of it all... and he started to sink immediately...
"Master, master, I perish... save me!" Peter cried out!

Jesus simply held him up and said, "Oh ye of little faith..."
How it must have grieved Him... here Peter was walking on the water... it should have been exhilarating... but he caved in, shall we say.

How do we stop from caving in?
How do we keep our eyes on Jesus when the storms are bashing so hard and all the walls are crashing in?
How do we keep the faith...

"Master, master, I perish... save me!"
Until next time,
Jean